The Middle

I feel like I'm in the middle of lots of stuff right now. I'm in the middle of my life, to start. I will turn 45 in a month, and I am starting to feel my age. I am comfortable with it all, not trying to avoid aging -- but I would like life to slow down a bit. Seems each day blends into the next, and then a year goes by.

I'm also in the middle of last year's yearbook. I can't get a return letter from the playing card company -- and we need that release so they can print our cover. We have 51 pages left to final, and it's slow going. Ranae isn't going to be in town until homecoming, and we better have this book done by then. Kiwi is plugging away on it, and we plan to work late next week a day to try to get 'er done.

Finally, I'm in the middle of a dilemma: should I retire from this job or start trying to be an educational consultant? What do I wanna do with the next 20 years of my career? What is my "spiel?" Should I get back into sexuality education? Should I stick with journalism? And should I then go for my doctorate degree?

Hmmmmm. I also woke up in the middle of the night thinking about these things...and I've been upping my meds as per the advice of my shrink.

Oh well, I guess it's better to live life in the middle than always judging how it ends. How will my life end? Will I have achieved all my goals? Will I have made an impact on others?

Hope I can blog in heaven or hell, wherever I end up.